SENTAP

Assalamualaikum,

Sekali, berkali-kali asyik-asyik aku tersentap. 

Sometimes, it's better to have nothing than own a thing.  It taught you how to appreciate what is the most important task you've got to achieve.

My life now just like a kind of thing that I, myself don't understand.  Where is me?  Where is the old me?  Does she run or where she's hide?

Long ago, I've ever wrote a note that reminding myself why is the why why?

Hand over my head, thinking straight up to the ceiling, green. Yes, the color that been painted in my room.  Why? That's why!  I don't know why that why why.  Oh dholna...dil to pagal hai. The song i've been listen to right now.  Seems like I also pagal but I don't know what is 'dholna' mean then I got the point!  Maybe that 'why' stand for my stupidness in finding the meaning of my life.  I only listen without knowing the meaning and I only living without planning the ending.  I don't want my life ends without the beginning!  Maybe I still  on my way to the start point but where is it? GPS? show me the way!!

The battlefield inside my heart grow bigger and bigger everyday.  This is my life. Why I should give it to others to decide?  I, myself are an independence girl since I was a little girl.  That's why I've grown up living such a no-hearted person with an empty eyes watching others struggling so hard in making their life from tears to happiness.

Honestly,  I rarely saying the love words because as for me, love is not what you can say and yell at to anyone.  Love, the most precious and sweetest thing if you find the purer and it comes directly from your heart.  As for me, I feel so awkward when I have to tell people that "You are the most thing comes in my mind" because, I know, in  my mind, there will be nothing except the dream that I certainly wanted but will never come true unless it's my luck to achieve it.

Today I feel so ter'SENTAP' to  myself, why? why? why? I don't know and I wish I can just ignore that feeling but it's killing me softly.

Sorry for being cruel to myself.  But, at the same time maybe I've treat other with bad and worst situation.

Poor me.

tq. 

ASSALAMUALAIKUM W.B.T. +BISMILLAHIRRAHMANNIRRAHIM+

Flu+Cough+Nearly Fever...

Daripada hari Ahad lagi terkena FLU.  Balik kampung mesti dapat batuk.
Memang Homesick betul lah..
Today even worse sebab dah start nak berkahak dah walaupun tekak dah tak berapa gatal tp mata perit dan berair.  Hope kali ini tak effect kepala la sebab bila bow down mesti rasa sakit kepala yang teramat sangat.  Ubat??emm..clarinase sj la. malas mau on antibiotik..biarlah kali ni sembuh secara semulajadi.
Terasa ingin MC lagi tapi cukup2lah..MC pun bukan ada buat apa pun di rumah tu.  Kerja-kerja-kerja cari duit lebih untuk belanja masa hadapan. Chewahhhh...hehe

RINDU pula sama my Lady Boss.. semalam berbalas emel dengan dia.  He he he... "Missed you and HPj" she said. nah.. I replied "missed u too dr".. ngee... so sweet....

Myworkplace...
Minggu ni rest sikit. Boleh masuk lewat dari kebiasaan sebab tiada yang dikejar.  Boleh balik on time...
Heee... memang rest la..tp minggu dpan dah start balik la ni bekejar ke sana ke mari.. Laporan tahunan pun belum siap lagi.. mati laaaaa...adoiii...helpppppp...need to move out from this box.

PENAT....
Ingin rehat dari apa? ya...rehat dulu aa...tunggu hujung tahun..sabar ya...sabar...ya sabar ni..haha....

Kita hanya merancang tetapi Allah SWT lah menentukan segala-galanya.  Usaha, Doa, Tawakkal, Istiqamah dan bersabar itu paling utama pentingnya..

Okay sudah dulu aaa....

Miss My Family :)) Tempat jatuh lagi dikenang inikan pula tempat bermanja...okaybaiiiiii

Wassalam...

I Hate You For Treating Me Nice

Assalamualaikum...

Bismillahirrahmannirrahim..

Baru sahaja kembali dari bercuti dari Pitas, Sabah my hometown selama seminggu..

Seronok rasanya dapat bersama keluarga walaupun masa agak terhad dan padat dengan kesibukan menguruskan majlis kenduri kahwin sepupu di sebelah rumah.. everything was organized by our siblings...

emm.. i hate being treated so nice. so I hate you.

why? 

why?

why?

setiap persoalan ada jawapan. setiap permasalahan ada jalan penyelesaian.

so please, be nice but don't treat me nicely.

I am a Very Humble person. I Live in a simple Family, simple life but complicated mind (inside).  I like to talk only to myself when I found out no one wants to talk with me.  I love My Lil Brother Farhan and always miss him so much!

But, 

Tidak mengapalah, jika kau berkata demikian, aku yang menurut perintah.

Terima kasih. terima kasih. terima kasih.

ini adalah post yang paling kucar kacir sekali di kala ini.

wassalam...

Aku Pelik Tapi Aku Bersyukur

assalamualaikum,

apa khabarmu di sana? lama sudah tak berjumpa.. weh, updating blog ok..kelas gitu..hehe

ok..ok..i got it..i got it...sila gunakan bahasa melayu tinggi bah sayang!!

Dimulakan dengan Bismillahirrahmanirrahim,

Ingin kukisahkan tentang kesedihan tetapi di manakah kesudahan?

Ingin kukisahkan tentang kegembiraan tetapi di manakah gerangan?

Menjadi diriku, menjadi dirimu, menjadi dirinya

Ya, menjadi diri masing-masing

Tiada lagi berakhir di Januari.  Kemalasan untuk memikirkan tentang kesudahannya membuatku terus meninggalkan segala-galanya.  walaupun kemuncak ini, hati selalu disentap oleh keadaan yang berbeza.

semoga tiada lagi yang dapat merobek, merentap, menggugat keselambaan yang aku jalani ketika ini.

terima kasih.

FINALLY!!!

Assalamualaikum w.b.t
Akhirnya dapat juga aku access ke dalam blog aku ni semula...syukur alhamdulillah...itulah pentingnya email recovery.
apa yang mau di'update' ini ya?
firstly,I am still single, so don't mess with me. Hahaha
Secondly,
Bila la dapat transfer balik sabah ni ya? ko tanya kau jawab sendiri..macamanala mau transfer kalau surat tukar pun belum buat lagi... beri aku kekuatan....huhuhu....
Thirdly,
Aku tak suka ketuat..kenapa? walaupun lepas kita buang, tp lepas tu still akan muncul lagi....haishhh..begitula perasaan terhadap orang yang kita tak sepatutnya suka/minat...boleh minat tapi tak sepatutnya lah..hahahaha...so bila mau buang perasaan minat tu dpt hilang sekejap sj..lepas tu muncul lagi..stress kan...
Seterusnya,
mau update lagi blog ini..untuk bicara2 sendiri..eyaaaa....yeaaaa...
bye...c u then...
wassalam...

My WorkPlace :)

Bismillahirrahmanirrahim...Assalamualaikum...

Hai kawan-kawan..today i want to share about my workplace..hee...Here I am.. Hospital Putrajaya...

Hospital Putrajaya Background

Macam megah je nama kan...memang GAH!! hehe...di sinilah aku mendapat peluang pekerjaan yang pertama..harus bersyukur okay..

Hospital Putrajaya :

Aku lapor diri join HPJ pada 3dis2009.  Perjalanan nak ke sini agak menyedihkan jugaklah sebab 1st kitorang semua lapor diri beramai-ramai di Jab. Perdana Menteri Putrajaya pada 1Dis2009. Pada hari yang sama kami diserahkan surat penempatan dan perlantikan JPA.  Mine dapat posting ke Kementerian Kesihatan Malaysia. The same day kami diarahkan melaporkan diri ke Kementerian masing-masing untuk mendapatkan penempatan seterusnya.  Kat KKM kitorang disuruh buat pilihan negeri mana yang nak bertugas.  Aku buat 2 pilihan, 1st  choice aku KK sabah. 2nd choice K.L coz near to my sis and bro.
The next day, dapat surat penempatan baru...aku ditempatkan di jab. kesihatan wilayah kl.  Yeehuuu la konon masa dapat surat tu.. Esoknya, 3.12.2009, aku pun lapor diri ke JKWPKL tu..
3Disember2009 - Lapor diri ke Jkwpkl- EO Sumber Manusia kata takde kosong kat situ tapi kat Hospital bawah JKWPKL ada kekosongan..Hospital apa? Hospital Putrajaya...mak aiiii betapa jauh jarak korang punya hospital dari ibupejabat...wawawa...nak nangesshhhh...macamana aku mau g sana hari ni juga...then my hero send me a taxi..aku pun pergilah ke HPJ dengan menaiki teksi.  harga taknak cerita la..huhu..mahallllllllllllll..... okay enough..menung punya menung lebih kurang 40min aku pun sampailah kat Pentadbiran Hospital Putrajaya. Isi borang kat kaunter depan tu.  Then dibawa mengadap EO sumber..  Pengarah masa tu takde sebab ada Kursus Kredentialing Pengarah Hospital kat luar.  Aku pun minta excuse kat EO tu untuk balik awal sebab mau cari rumah sewa... Nasib baiklah kat Putrajaya ni member2 aku yang lain dah ada rumah sewa..so aku pun tumpanglah mereka-mereka kat rumah sewa yang menjadi rumah sewa aku shingga kini...End of story lapor diri dah...esoknya baru datang keja tapi dah hari jumaat..hehehe..masani Pengarah datang opis. aku pun mengadap dia..sambil tu minta cuti kesian nak balik kampung sebab my brother kahwin...naseb baik dapat cuti kelayakan 2hari...huhu..k..macam tulah perjalanan melapor diriku..haha...ok bai..cerita lain plak...

tapi next time lah ye... ~OFF to Mars~

Putrajaya Global Diabetes Walk 2011 vs 2010

Bismillahirrahmannirrahim...Assalamualaikum ya akhi wa ukhti...

Today, I want to share about World Diabetes Day.. Here, i copy some information about it :

World Diabetes Day is the primary global awareness campaign of the diabetes mellitus world and is held on November 14 of each year. It was introduced in 1991 by the International Diabetes Federation and the World Health Organization in response to the alarming rise of diabetes around the world. World Diabetes Day is a campaign that features a new theme chosen by the International Diabetes Federation each year to address issues facing the global diabetes community. While the campaigns last the whole year, the day itself marks the birthday of Frederick Banting who, along with Charles Best, first conceived the idea which led to the discovery of insulin in 1922.
Each year, World Diabetes Day is centred on a theme related to diabetes. Topics covered have included diabetes and human rights, diabetes and lifestyle, diabetes and obesity, diabetes in the disadvantaged and the vulnerable, diabetes in children and adolescents.^[1] and talking about Diabetes^[2]
For 2009–2013, the theme is Diabetes Education and Prevention.

The day before, Hospital Putrajaya in-conjunction with Novo Nodisck company has organised a Putrajaya Global Diabetes Walk at Putrajaya Wetland Park..

So, me and my bestfriend : @F_Shazwanie & @ctlayhamamat (twitter), including kaknorma has joined this walk.. (since last year).  We were having so much fun.  Taking photoshoot is our most favourite part.  Everywhere we go, take pic first!!peace..hehehe..I heart them so much..muahhhh friendd....

Here i attached some pics that we take during the walk :-(version 2011)



me(the shorter one), farrah, layha

 

yeah...berjalan mengikut barisan..already walk about 4km...

this is me n layha...

ambik vitamin C kat tengah padang...

 eh..ni sapa lak?

 

 yeah...artis Putrajaya (1501 & 1502 je tau)

 (peace yo) me n farrah...

together wif Tim. Pengarah HPJ (my sweet 2nd lady Boss)

Pada hari tu (13,Nov,2011) which is Layha birthday's too - at midnite we were having a conference (between housemate2) wishing layha Happy Birthday :) - our main speaker Farrah who never getting tired to talk..haha...we laugh all nite til' we feel so tired n sleepy..we also taking pic in acara makan kek suapmenyuap but i can't uploaded it here...coz me and farrah 'head togel' lah...haha...
Pada pagi harinya (macam budak darjah satu punya cerita lorrr), kami bertiga bangun awal, mandi & solat pastu dalam 6.20am bertolak ke HPJ untuk gerak bersama Tim. Pengarah HPJ (pic above)...tahun ni kitorang berkesempatan berjalan dan mendapat baju..tidak seperti tahun lepas (2010)..hanya sempat bergambar tapi berjalannya tidak sempat.. buktinya seperti gambar di bawah : p/s - gambar ini diambil oleh seorang fotographer yang menggelar dirinya PengemysJalanan..(he got blog)..google to find out..hehe

Presenting Putrajaya Global Diabetes Walk version 2010 :

Sesi pendaftaran :)

muka blurr bla akak kat kaunter tu cakap dorang semua dah blepas dah..haha..

emm..takperla..yg penting..POSE!!ada orang ambil gambar..

Farrah : emm..yela tu..

mencari arah tujuan setelah ditinggalkan oleh peserta-peserta lain...

yeah!!sampai ke garisan penamat!!walaupun tak berjalan tetap dapat sijil..hehe...

here we go!!yeehaa...

Layha : ok! tangkap hensem2..

Farrah : wekkkk...kitorang paymes hari ni..haha

me : emm..sapolah mamat ni..dr tadi dok mensnap kitorang jak..haha...

hope this friendship Last Forever :) -love u guys <3

So, memandangkan kitorang pun baru je kat Putrajaya ni lebih kurang 2tahun, ada 2version je la..hehe..next year insyaALLAH jika berkesempatan akan join lagi...

wah, seronoknya!!!!!!

see you next year WDD...

that's all for today :)