SENTAP

Assalamualaikum,

Sekali, berkali-kali asyik-asyik aku tersentap. 

Sometimes, it's better to have nothing than own a thing.  It taught you how to appreciate what is the most important task you've got to achieve.

My life now just like a kind of thing that I, myself don't understand.  Where is me?  Where is the old me?  Does she run or where she's hide?

Long ago, I've ever wrote a note that reminding myself why is the why why?

Hand over my head, thinking straight up to the ceiling, green. Yes, the color that been painted in my room.  Why? That's why!  I don't know why that why why.  Oh dholna...dil to pagal hai. The song i've been listen to right now.  Seems like I also pagal but I don't know what is 'dholna' mean then I got the point!  Maybe that 'why' stand for my stupidness in finding the meaning of my life.  I only listen without knowing the meaning and I only living without planning the ending.  I don't want my life ends without the beginning!  Maybe I still  on my way to the start point but where is it? GPS? show me the way!!

The battlefield inside my heart grow bigger and bigger everyday.  This is my life. Why I should give it to others to decide?  I, myself are an independence girl since I was a little girl.  That's why I've grown up living such a no-hearted person with an empty eyes watching others struggling so hard in making their life from tears to happiness.

Honestly,  I rarely saying the love words because as for me, love is not what you can say and yell at to anyone.  Love, the most precious and sweetest thing if you find the purer and it comes directly from your heart.  As for me, I feel so awkward when I have to tell people that "You are the most thing comes in my mind" because, I know, in  my mind, there will be nothing except the dream that I certainly wanted but will never come true unless it's my luck to achieve it.

Today I feel so ter'SENTAP' to  myself, why? why? why? I don't know and I wish I can just ignore that feeling but it's killing me softly.

Sorry for being cruel to myself.  But, at the same time maybe I've treat other with bad and worst situation.

Poor me.

tq. 

ASSALAMUALAIKUM W.B.T. +BISMILLAHIRRAHMANNIRRAHIM+

Flu+Cough+Nearly Fever...

Daripada hari Ahad lagi terkena FLU.  Balik kampung mesti dapat batuk.
Memang Homesick betul lah..
Today even worse sebab dah start nak berkahak dah walaupun tekak dah tak berapa gatal tp mata perit dan berair.  Hope kali ini tak effect kepala la sebab bila bow down mesti rasa sakit kepala yang teramat sangat.  Ubat??emm..clarinase sj la. malas mau on antibiotik..biarlah kali ni sembuh secara semulajadi.
Terasa ingin MC lagi tapi cukup2lah..MC pun bukan ada buat apa pun di rumah tu.  Kerja-kerja-kerja cari duit lebih untuk belanja masa hadapan. Chewahhhh...hehe

RINDU pula sama my Lady Boss.. semalam berbalas emel dengan dia.  He he he... "Missed you and HPj" she said. nah.. I replied "missed u too dr".. ngee... so sweet....

Myworkplace...
Minggu ni rest sikit. Boleh masuk lewat dari kebiasaan sebab tiada yang dikejar.  Boleh balik on time...
Heee... memang rest la..tp minggu dpan dah start balik la ni bekejar ke sana ke mari.. Laporan tahunan pun belum siap lagi.. mati laaaaa...adoiii...helpppppp...need to move out from this box.

PENAT....
Ingin rehat dari apa? ya...rehat dulu aa...tunggu hujung tahun..sabar ya...sabar...ya sabar ni..haha....

Kita hanya merancang tetapi Allah SWT lah menentukan segala-galanya.  Usaha, Doa, Tawakkal, Istiqamah dan bersabar itu paling utama pentingnya..

Okay sudah dulu aaa....

Miss My Family :)) Tempat jatuh lagi dikenang inikan pula tempat bermanja...okaybaiiiiii

Wassalam...

I Hate You For Treating Me Nice

Assalamualaikum...

Bismillahirrahmannirrahim..

Baru sahaja kembali dari bercuti dari Pitas, Sabah my hometown selama seminggu..

Seronok rasanya dapat bersama keluarga walaupun masa agak terhad dan padat dengan kesibukan menguruskan majlis kenduri kahwin sepupu di sebelah rumah.. everything was organized by our siblings...

emm.. i hate being treated so nice. so I hate you.

why? 

why?

why?

setiap persoalan ada jawapan. setiap permasalahan ada jalan penyelesaian.

so please, be nice but don't treat me nicely.

I am a Very Humble person. I Live in a simple Family, simple life but complicated mind (inside).  I like to talk only to myself when I found out no one wants to talk with me.  I love My Lil Brother Farhan and always miss him so much!

But, 

Tidak mengapalah, jika kau berkata demikian, aku yang menurut perintah.

Terima kasih. terima kasih. terima kasih.

ini adalah post yang paling kucar kacir sekali di kala ini.

wassalam...