Gift Of A Friend

Sometimes you think you’ll be fine by yourself

‘Cause a dream is a wish that you make all alone

It’s easy to feel like you don’t need help

But it’s harder to walk on your own

You’ll change inside

When you realize

The world comes to life

And everything’s right

From beginning to end

When you have a friend

By your side

That helps you to find

The beauty you are, when you open your heart

And believe in

The gift of a friend

The gift of a friend

Someone who knows when you’re lost

And you’re scared

There through the highs and the lows

Someone to count on, someone who cares

Beside you wherever you go

You’ll change inside

When you realize

The world comes to life

And everything’s right

From beginning to end

When you have a friend

By your side

That helps you to find

The beauty you are, when you open your heart

And believe in

The gift of a friend

And when your hope crashes down

Shattering to the ground

You, you feel all alone

When you don’t know which way to go

There’s no signs leading you home

You’re not alone

The world comes to life

And everything’s bright

From beginning to end

When you have a friend

By your side

That helps you to find

The beauty you are, when you open your heart

And believe in

When you believe in

When you believe in

The gift of a friend

and now I realize...I really miss you friend :') but I know, things will never goes same again like what we used to be before.  it's all my fault. i'm the one who run and hide from you.  I don't know why I should do this but I feel so guilty because I can't help you and be there when you need me.  A true friend will never run and ignore her bestfriend but I'd do it. and the most hurt part is I've do it to you. I'm not your true friend.  That's makes me sad and disappointed toward myself.  Forgive me dear friend for letting you go alone.  For throwing a gravel while you are pulling a big rock while climbing the high road.  I'm a piece of paper.  useless. thousand apologies. Hope you can forgive me for all the things I've done and give a scar in your heart.  Thank you for everything that we have been through as far before.  Deep in myheart I still love you..........I miss you my Little Ant.

SENTAP

Assalamualaikum,

Sekali, berkali-kali asyik-asyik aku tersentap. 

Sometimes, it's better to have nothing than own a thing.  It taught you how to appreciate what is the most important task you've got to achieve.

My life now just like a kind of thing that I, myself don't understand.  Where is me?  Where is the old me?  Does she run or where she's hide?

Long ago, I've ever wrote a note that reminding myself why is the why why?

Hand over my head, thinking straight up to the ceiling, green. Yes, the color that been painted in my room.  Why? That's why!  I don't know why that why why.  Oh dholna...dil to pagal hai. The song i've been listen to right now.  Seems like I also pagal but I don't know what is 'dholna' mean then I got the point!  Maybe that 'why' stand for my stupidness in finding the meaning of my life.  I only listen without knowing the meaning and I only living without planning the ending.  I don't want my life ends without the beginning!  Maybe I still  on my way to the start point but where is it? GPS? show me the way!!

The battlefield inside my heart grow bigger and bigger everyday.  This is my life. Why I should give it to others to decide?  I, myself are an independence girl since I was a little girl.  That's why I've grown up living such a no-hearted person with an empty eyes watching others struggling so hard in making their life from tears to happiness.

Honestly,  I rarely saying the love words because as for me, love is not what you can say and yell at to anyone.  Love, the most precious and sweetest thing if you find the purer and it comes directly from your heart.  As for me, I feel so awkward when I have to tell people that "You are the most thing comes in my mind" because, I know, in  my mind, there will be nothing except the dream that I certainly wanted but will never come true unless it's my luck to achieve it.

Today I feel so ter'SENTAP' to  myself, why? why? why? I don't know and I wish I can just ignore that feeling but it's killing me softly.

Sorry for being cruel to myself.  But, at the same time maybe I've treat other with bad and worst situation.

Poor me.

tq. 

ASSALAMUALAIKUM W.B.T. +BISMILLAHIRRAHMANNIRRAHIM+

Flu+Cough+Nearly Fever...

Daripada hari Ahad lagi terkena FLU.  Balik kampung mesti dapat batuk.
Memang Homesick betul lah..
Today even worse sebab dah start nak berkahak dah walaupun tekak dah tak berapa gatal tp mata perit dan berair.  Hope kali ini tak effect kepala la sebab bila bow down mesti rasa sakit kepala yang teramat sangat.  Ubat??emm..clarinase sj la. malas mau on antibiotik..biarlah kali ni sembuh secara semulajadi.
Terasa ingin MC lagi tapi cukup2lah..MC pun bukan ada buat apa pun di rumah tu.  Kerja-kerja-kerja cari duit lebih untuk belanja masa hadapan. Chewahhhh...hehe

RINDU pula sama my Lady Boss.. semalam berbalas emel dengan dia.  He he he... "Missed you and HPj" she said. nah.. I replied "missed u too dr".. ngee... so sweet....

Myworkplace...
Minggu ni rest sikit. Boleh masuk lewat dari kebiasaan sebab tiada yang dikejar.  Boleh balik on time...
Heee... memang rest la..tp minggu dpan dah start balik la ni bekejar ke sana ke mari.. Laporan tahunan pun belum siap lagi.. mati laaaaa...adoiii...helpppppp...need to move out from this box.

PENAT....
Ingin rehat dari apa? ya...rehat dulu aa...tunggu hujung tahun..sabar ya...sabar...ya sabar ni..haha....

Kita hanya merancang tetapi Allah SWT lah menentukan segala-galanya.  Usaha, Doa, Tawakkal, Istiqamah dan bersabar itu paling utama pentingnya..

Okay sudah dulu aaa....

Miss My Family :)) Tempat jatuh lagi dikenang inikan pula tempat bermanja...okaybaiiiiii

Wassalam...

I Hate You For Treating Me Nice

Assalamualaikum...

Bismillahirrahmannirrahim..

Baru sahaja kembali dari bercuti dari Pitas, Sabah my hometown selama seminggu..

Seronok rasanya dapat bersama keluarga walaupun masa agak terhad dan padat dengan kesibukan menguruskan majlis kenduri kahwin sepupu di sebelah rumah.. everything was organized by our siblings...

emm.. i hate being treated so nice. so I hate you.

why? 

why?

why?

setiap persoalan ada jawapan. setiap permasalahan ada jalan penyelesaian.

so please, be nice but don't treat me nicely.

I am a Very Humble person. I Live in a simple Family, simple life but complicated mind (inside).  I like to talk only to myself when I found out no one wants to talk with me.  I love My Lil Brother Farhan and always miss him so much!

But, 

Tidak mengapalah, jika kau berkata demikian, aku yang menurut perintah.

Terima kasih. terima kasih. terima kasih.

ini adalah post yang paling kucar kacir sekali di kala ini.

wassalam...

Aku Pelik Tapi Aku Bersyukur

assalamualaikum,

apa khabarmu di sana? lama sudah tak berjumpa.. weh, updating blog ok..kelas gitu..hehe

ok..ok..i got it..i got it...sila gunakan bahasa melayu tinggi bah sayang!!

Dimulakan dengan Bismillahirrahmanirrahim,

Ingin kukisahkan tentang kesedihan tetapi di manakah kesudahan?

Ingin kukisahkan tentang kegembiraan tetapi di manakah gerangan?

Menjadi diriku, menjadi dirimu, menjadi dirinya

Ya, menjadi diri masing-masing

Tiada lagi berakhir di Januari.  Kemalasan untuk memikirkan tentang kesudahannya membuatku terus meninggalkan segala-galanya.  walaupun kemuncak ini, hati selalu disentap oleh keadaan yang berbeza.

semoga tiada lagi yang dapat merobek, merentap, menggugat keselambaan yang aku jalani ketika ini.

terima kasih.

FINALLY!!!

Assalamualaikum w.b.t
Akhirnya dapat juga aku access ke dalam blog aku ni semula...syukur alhamdulillah...itulah pentingnya email recovery.
apa yang mau di'update' ini ya?
firstly,I am still single, so don't mess with me. Hahaha
Secondly,
Bila la dapat transfer balik sabah ni ya? ko tanya kau jawab sendiri..macamanala mau transfer kalau surat tukar pun belum buat lagi... beri aku kekuatan....huhuhu....
Thirdly,
Aku tak suka ketuat..kenapa? walaupun lepas kita buang, tp lepas tu still akan muncul lagi....haishhh..begitula perasaan terhadap orang yang kita tak sepatutnya suka/minat...boleh minat tapi tak sepatutnya lah..hahahaha...so bila mau buang perasaan minat tu dpt hilang sekejap sj..lepas tu muncul lagi..stress kan...
Seterusnya,
mau update lagi blog ini..untuk bicara2 sendiri..eyaaaa....yeaaaa...
bye...c u then...
wassalam...

My WorkPlace :)

Bismillahirrahmanirrahim...Assalamualaikum...

Hai kawan-kawan..today i want to share about my workplace..hee...Here I am.. Hospital Putrajaya...

Hospital Putrajaya Background

Macam megah je nama kan...memang GAH!! hehe...di sinilah aku mendapat peluang pekerjaan yang pertama..harus bersyukur okay..

Hospital Putrajaya :

Aku lapor diri join HPJ pada 3dis2009.  Perjalanan nak ke sini agak menyedihkan jugaklah sebab 1st kitorang semua lapor diri beramai-ramai di Jab. Perdana Menteri Putrajaya pada 1Dis2009. Pada hari yang sama kami diserahkan surat penempatan dan perlantikan JPA.  Mine dapat posting ke Kementerian Kesihatan Malaysia. The same day kami diarahkan melaporkan diri ke Kementerian masing-masing untuk mendapatkan penempatan seterusnya.  Kat KKM kitorang disuruh buat pilihan negeri mana yang nak bertugas.  Aku buat 2 pilihan, 1st  choice aku KK sabah. 2nd choice K.L coz near to my sis and bro.
The next day, dapat surat penempatan baru...aku ditempatkan di jab. kesihatan wilayah kl.  Yeehuuu la konon masa dapat surat tu.. Esoknya, 3.12.2009, aku pun lapor diri ke JKWPKL tu..
3Disember2009 - Lapor diri ke Jkwpkl- EO Sumber Manusia kata takde kosong kat situ tapi kat Hospital bawah JKWPKL ada kekosongan..Hospital apa? Hospital Putrajaya...mak aiiii betapa jauh jarak korang punya hospital dari ibupejabat...wawawa...nak nangesshhhh...macamana aku mau g sana hari ni juga...then my hero send me a taxi..aku pun pergilah ke HPJ dengan menaiki teksi.  harga taknak cerita la..huhu..mahallllllllllllll..... okay enough..menung punya menung lebih kurang 40min aku pun sampailah kat Pentadbiran Hospital Putrajaya. Isi borang kat kaunter depan tu.  Then dibawa mengadap EO sumber..  Pengarah masa tu takde sebab ada Kursus Kredentialing Pengarah Hospital kat luar.  Aku pun minta excuse kat EO tu untuk balik awal sebab mau cari rumah sewa... Nasib baiklah kat Putrajaya ni member2 aku yang lain dah ada rumah sewa..so aku pun tumpanglah mereka-mereka kat rumah sewa yang menjadi rumah sewa aku shingga kini...End of story lapor diri dah...esoknya baru datang keja tapi dah hari jumaat..hehehe..masani Pengarah datang opis. aku pun mengadap dia..sambil tu minta cuti kesian nak balik kampung sebab my brother kahwin...naseb baik dapat cuti kelayakan 2hari...huhu..k..macam tulah perjalanan melapor diriku..haha...ok bai..cerita lain plak...

tapi next time lah ye... ~OFF to Mars~