Alhamdulillah.. Thank You Allah...

Assalamualaikum,

Lama tidak menjenguk dan menulis di sini.

Ya Allah, aku bersyukur Ya Allah.  Hari ini merupakan hari yang terindah kurasakan.
Walaupun orang lain menganggap keputusan 3B 2C itu keputusan sederhana tp bagi aku dan familyku, itu merupakan keputusan yang membanggakan sekali buat kami sekeluarga.  Hari ini keputusan UPSR telah diumumkan, dan adikku Muhamad Khaliq Farhan bin Abd. Malek telah berjaya memperoleh keputusan tersebut tanpa gagal mana-mana subjek.  Tahniah adik acheeq, walaupun farhan autistik tp farhan boleh menjawab soalan peperiksaan spt budak-budak normal yang lain.  mudah-mudahan kejayaan terus mengiringi perjalananmu adik.  Kami sayang sangat-sangat Farhan.

Fuhhh.... berdegup degap juga jantung tunggu result diumumkan tadi. Untuk menjadi orang pertama tahu result aku siap schedule message delivery kat hp.. result keluar jam 10 pagi so aku pun set kan timer utk send mesej tu.  Alhamdulillah, we are so proud of you my lil. bro. You are such an inspiration to other kids. Mengajarmu memerlukan kesabaran yang tinggi.  Even acheeq pun kadang-kadang tertewas dalam memberi bimbingan dan tunjuk ajar kpd farhan.  Ummi jugaklah insan yang tabah dan penyabar dalam mendidik anak-anak.  Maka hargailah ummi anda.  Terima kasih ummi kerana menjadi ibu terbaik kpd kami anak-anakmu. Terima kasih juga abah sebab menjadi penjaga terbaik keluarga kita.  Semua dengan peranan masing-masing yang dijalankan dengan ikhlas dan jayanya. I love my family. In Shaa Allah keluargaku sakinah....

Aamiin...

Long Time Journey

Assalamualaikum Warahmatullahi Ta'ala Wabarakatuh...

Hi, it's been a long time since I didn't take a peak and looking onto this page because recently I've been busy with something that I don't know what? Maybe I'm just linger around wasting my time but sincerely I do so and feel wasted about what I've earn in my living just now. What did I've earn? I didn't earn too much I just like day by day feel lost and stuck into something that make my head feel dizzy and sometimes makes me feel like wanting to hit it on the hard wall.  Just let it broke into pieces then when I feel sorry I'll come back picking up the pieces and stick it back together with the glue.  Am I sick by thinking of something that irrelevant? Am I?

The question with no final Answer.. That's all what we all talk about everyday.  We keep on asking by the meantime we already know the answer.  So why we came up with nothing we have done just sitting and let thing happen? That's us "human being" that is nothing awkward for being a human coz it's our nature.  For not being thankful for what Allah has given to us..... always like that... Masya Allah..

The year of 2013 - this is the year that I feel like I don't deserve anything in this whole world.  Why dear?? All people around me who loves me, taking care of me, believe in me and so on.. but me? myself -- wasting my time by chasing people who didn't deserve my kindness, my love,my attention and my faith.. it's just me?? I'm sorry for that.

Today, I declare myself to deactivate one of my social network account just for a while because I feel annoying about myself by shouting my private life my dumb pic my silly thought in the wall for people put their attention to me. That's not me. Even at all.. I hate it.

Today also, i've send an application and my wish to change my attitude my time my mind set hoping that this application will be accepted by that receiver as for me I really hope to get into those place.. Really really hope since I've enter this job.

i wish that my wish will come true.

It's me MT Aeja talking about my wish and come up with miscellaneous things...

Friend Or Foe??

Assalamualaikum,.

Gambar motif: Cuba lari dari kenyataan akhirnya dapat penampar??

Hai, how's your day? I hope it will be good and always better everyday.. day by day..

Think of me?

No... I don't think you will do so?

Why you want to make thing so complicated before?

Yeah..

I have friend and friends.

I do have them, but do they have me?

I don't know.

You can say better thing, but you will never know what will comes along..

Life is a journey. Everyone has they own journey. So be it. Just be you. No matter what people will talk bad about you but it's you. Maybe they were true, so why not? Just accept what they talk about you but unless it's true.

People always said, know your enemy.. but don't they want to know their friend? I do want to know my friend.  I know some of them but what I don't know is, are they will to be my friend? oR they just want to hang over with me, for a reason?? I really don't like that kind of situation.. I think it's goes the same with other.  Either you and I, do didn't want to be in a situation where your friend only be there when they need you.. not when they feel you need them...

Ini bukan novel okay.  Ini kenyataan hidup.

Hari ini rasa macam mau tulis pasal "How You Treat People and How You Want Them To Treat You Back?"

Situasinya macam ini.

Berada di kelompok baru.

Bagi aku, apabila berada di dalam kelompok yang baru, aku akan menjadi pendiam dulu.  Mata memerhati, minda meneliti.  Bukan memilih tapi menyesuaikan diri.  Seterusnya, aku akan cuba bergerak mengikut masa.  Tetapi yang penting, kita haruslah melayan sesiapa sahaja samarata.

Permulaan yang baik tidak semestinya merupakan penentu sesuatu berjalan lancar pada akhirnya.  Kadang-kadang, permulaan yang tidak sempurna itu lebih menjamin keharmonian dalam sesuatu perhubungan.  ha ha ha ha.. Menangis dahulu ketawa kemudian. (pfffff.......)

Kehidupan ini tidak pernah akan menemui kesudahan sehinggalah kita menemui titik ajal iaitu di saat Malaikat maut menjemputmu.  Oleh itu, berkawanlah dengan semua orang dan bermusuhlah dengan diri sendiri.  Eh?? Ada pula macam tu? huhuhuhu...udah2 ler tu kak. buruk sangat.

k bye...

It's me, MTA talking about whatever...

FORGET ME?? I KILL YOU!!!

Apa perlu saya buat?? Que terlalu LAMA....

Assalamualaikum,...

Today's entry will be about? Rebate smartphone RM200.00 for youth age from 18-30 yrs old. Student and employee's monthly salary not exceed Rm3,000.00. wah.. seem so interesting but i've already bought a new smartphone. So I think no need to use this opportunity 'coz u also have to paid in a big amount just to get a new smartphone??? oh no... but it's okay.. ini semua duniawiiiii.... why don't they give us rebat to perform hajj?? haa... SAME STORY GOES TO THIS DUNIAWI THINGS LAH.. why don't govt give us a rebate to perform hajj.. for eligible muslim/ah with t&c.. 1Malaysia.. yes.. MALAYSIA!! we are ISLAM's country, why don't give all MUSLIMs a high priority.. so there will be no racial issue raise.

Dunia politik sekarang ni aku makin x paham.. apa yang diperjuangkan sebenarnya?? so better tak ambik port sangat..

Apa perlu saya buat?? Que terlalu lama...... this is a situation..true story and a complain from a patient to a Govt Hospital's service. weyyyyyy... initiative!! if u don't want to wait for a long que.. do something.. it's all about you. why dont you go to another GP clinic. spend some money if you don't want to spend some time (what a waste).

This is my channel to speak what inside of mine. so please don't get annoy.

Take care.

Wassalam.

MTAeja. Randomly writing.

I write a note, and it's a note ^_~

I have to take it all even though it's so hard.. Contoh bagi redha itu ikhlas pasrah itu menyerah.. Merelakan yg telah pergi tanpa meminta utk kembali.. Just be thankful for every moment yg telah dikongsi bersama.. Tiada peluang kedua yg sama.. Setelah apa yg terjadi., melalui pergaduhan perbalahan dalam sesebuah perhubungan ternyata kita lebih memahami bahawa kekeruhan ternyata telah berlaku. Setelah lama tidak menulis nota-nota kehidupan di sini ternyata i feel so weak and couldn't stop asking why.. ?? Hanya memerlukan kekuatan utk kekal kuat.. Kuat utk menerima perbuatan org lain terhadap diri ini. Apa yg terjadi sebenarnya cik adik? Perlukah dibahaskan apa yg terjadi? Stop the tears dear keep ur faith and be strong ^_^

My name is aeja. I am 23rd years old lady who living in this so untrimmed life who belong to me. Everyday i keep talking bout change change change from good to better. But still, it's still me the same old one no changes at all. Dengar tak hari tu sahabatmu pernah berpesan? Jangan terlalu bergantung kepada kehidupan duniawi semata-mata. Letakkan dunia itu di tangan dan akhirat di hatimu.. Kerana sesungguhnya manusia dicipta utk beribadah kepada Allah. Apa dikisahkan dengan kehidupan yg penuh kepalsuan ini? Apa ? Apa? Apa? Kisahkah kau dengan kehilangan? Kenapa bercakap tentang kerinduan kpd insan? Cukupkah kau merindui sujudmu kpd yg Esa?Dalam hidup ini, kita perlu tegas terhadap diri sendiri sebelum kita bertegas dengan org lain. Dahulukan kpd diri sendiri sebelum kita mengubah org lain. Kerana perubahan terbesar adalah sanggup berubah dan menerima perubahan diri. Di sinilah aku tidak layak untuk bercakap tentang kehidupan dan di sinilah aku mulai merasai kekerdilan. Masih adakah ruang dan waktu utk aku berubah?Dear my friend who I always hurt the most, please forgive me bcose tonight.. Once again I feel lost and I don't want to be with you. Yes, not you but you my friend.. You're avoiding me I know that but I just don't want to admit it. So I leave.. Once again but this time i leave in silent.. Without uve ever notice.. Slow and steady like nothing ever happen..Nota ini bercampur tapi tajuknya tetap sama.. My note and i write a note.. Tq.. Keep faithful coz u will gone so soon sooner or later ^_~

Sedikit gambar-Gambar kaki untuk ditatap umum:

aku suka berjaga sampai tengah malam.. reason?? jiwa kacau kadang2...hampa......

Tangan kiri selalu lenguh.. cuba buat electric wave... (kerja hospital banyaklah  medical equipment yg boleh dicoba)

one of my favorite food :::::: perasanla tu ada mix chinesse blood..wheeehheee

yes!! peminat mocha juga ~_^

aku juga suka perasan cute ^_^ haha.. sapa lagi mau rasa cute kalau bukan diri sendiri kan...

okay, that's all for today. So long, farewell and semoga berjumpa lagi di lain hari.

MTAeja: talking about so soon lagi ^_~

When I Said "U Went So Soon" that's mean U Left So SOon.....

Hidup umpama cermin yang menayangkan apa yang dipantulkan.

Sejak kebelakangan ini aku rasa sedih dalam diam. Tanpa ada sebab untuk aku menyatakan kesedihan.

Walaupun aku tahu kenapa aku rasa sedih tapi aku tak dapat rasakan yang kesedihan itu bermakna kerana hanya di pihak aku sahaja yang merasakan. Sedangkan di pihak lain tiada makna.

Perkenalan yang singkat boleh mengeratkan silaturahim, tapi apabila tiba suatu ketika timbul konflik dan permasalahan, hubungan itu boleh terputus begitu sahaja. Seperti tidak bermakna. Sebab itulah bila dengan lirik lagu Maher Zain "So Soon" aku rasa sangat tersentuh. Lirik lagu tu sama seperti apa yang aku rasakan sekarang ini.

Every time I close my eyes I see you in front of me

I still can hear your voice calling out my name

And I remember all the stories you told me

I miss the time you were around (x2)

But I’m so grateful for every moment I spent with you

‘Cause I know life won’t last forever

You left so soon, so soon

I have to move on ’cause I know it’s been too long

I’ve got to stop the tears, keep my faith and be strong

I’ll try to take it all, even though it’s so hard

I see you in my dreams but when I wake up you are gone

Gone so soon

And I remember you in every prayer that I make

Every single day may you be shaded by His mercy

But life is not the same, and it will never be the same

But I’m so thankful for every memory I shared with you

That to God we all belong, and to Him we’ll return, ooh

You went so soon, so soon

Night and day, I still feel you are close to me

Cause I know this life is not forever

There were days when I had no strength to go on

I felt so weak and I just couldn’t help asking: “Why?”

But I got through all the pain when I truly accepted

Hati berbolak-balik di dalamnya. Semoga aku dapat melupakan apa sahaja yang bisa membuat aku menangis......

FAKE THE FEELING, MAKE IT TRUE

Assalamualaikum w.b.t.. today's entry...

Hi guys who are not watching... hehe... today's entry will be about the fake feeling..

Do you guys know what is the fake feeling?

I always confusing and tempted to feel the things that my heart not supposed to... why arr?
Is that a way to express thing or just to take care of other feeling cause you also don't know what is their acceptance towards your respon....

Kebelakangan ini, aku mendapat ramai kawan.. ada daripada mereka kawan aku since study lagi.. lately kitorang jadi close balik sbb selalu jumpa dan spent time sama2... ada juga yg menjadi rapat dengan aku since slalu spent time jugak... what is your tips?? how to divide ur time to spent with them?? i've ever try to spend time along... within dis two different group.. cuba untuk bersama-sama meluangkan masa dan memperkenalkan mereka.. so i dont have to spent the different time... sebab bila jadi aku terpksa cancel time dgn grup ni sbb kena jumpa grup ni... sangat serbasalah jadinya... how how how??? aku pernah terpikir... kalau aku boleh terima kawan mereka..mesti dorang pn boleh terima kawan aku kan? berlaku adil itulah yang cuba aku lakukan... kalau tak paham juga memang aku takleh nak kata apa sebab aku rasa aku ni takdela penting pun bagi dorang.. aku ada aku takda sama jer.... so i choose to leave it and let the time show it...

so apa kaitannya dengan fake feeling?

ha ha ha.. so this is the reason why i brought up the issue... you know what? u cant be other person just to make others happy. aku selalu berpesan kepada diriku.. untuk menjadi gembira jangan berharap pada orang lain untuk menggembirakanmu.. aku selalu beringat bahawa orang lain mempunyai kehidupan sendiri.. jangan samakan kehidupan orang lain dengan kehidupanmu... sekiranya kau cuba untuk menyamakannya,,... di situlah konflik perasaan palsu bermula.. let's say,. when u re sad,. u don't have to expect people to do the same. aku sedihlaaaa... pasai pa ko buat aku tmbah sedih lagi... aghhh thats not me at all. I can promise u to do what u want me to do.. but I cant make sure that what u want is exactly what I've promised to you... manusia ni berbagai.. ada yang tahu menghargai ada yang buta hati.. aku tak tau la aku kategori mana.. kalau diikutkan mungkin rate paling tinggi aku ni dalam group butahati kot... ermm,,.. okay what to do.. don't ever judge me coz u will never know me even u are the closest one.. that's a fact about me.. the more u know me the more you will find out how stranger I am...

so, guys., do I have to fake the feeling and make it true? What a waste... I don't think I cant *can make it la..... lets be honest and faham2 je la kan... orang lain juga akan berbuat perkara yang sama.. kalau tak suka kata tak suka.. kalau benci kata benci.. kalau marah kata marah... kalau sayang kata sayang... urm...got to go... sebelum aku merepek yang bukan-bukan lagi baik aku blahhh.... haha...

it's me talking about feeling...

ughhh...