Friend..please don't leave me because I'm not perfect

Assalamualaikum,.

Hari ini, aku rasa sedih lagi. Sedih sikitlah berbanding sedih dulu.  Kenapakah itu?

Friend.. please don't leave me because I'm not perfect.

Entahlah.. memang kali tiap kali rapat dengan orang mesti kena touching..merajuk.. aku tak tau  pujuk.. aku yang jahat.. aku yang bla bla bla.. semua yang jahat aku lah.. so aku kena mengalah.. biarlah.. macam tu? eya macam tu la.. siapa suruh kau jadi kawan macam tu. Cubalah jadi kawan yang sempoi.  ye dak? berkawan biar seribu, sakitnya bukan berbatu-batu. berkawan biarlah penuh madu, jd racunnya bukanlah kamu. ewah..

Berkawanlah dengan ikhlas supaya tiada penyesalan di kemudian nanti.

Sekian, terima kasih.

wslm.

Write and Read (Tulis dan Baca)

Assalamualaikum w.b.t..

Hai guys, girl, boy, pakcik, makcik, insan sepi, insan seni, insan-insan.. hehe...
how r u? wassup wassup?

Today, I'll like to write something about something.

Eh, eh before that, well, so long time no see yah? How do you do? Well, me it's kinda like, eh, I've got boyfie already and I am so in love. eh? ok ok..

straight to the point, straight to the point.

Today, this afternoon, me myself, want to write something about writing.

Dear fella, why I like to write?

Like this, eh (DT)

I like to write something not because I was good in writing or so on.

I like to write because I love to read? What does the link? Write and Read. Like and Love.  Like is a kind of situation you do in freely will. SO you will write when you feel free and got something to share.  Love is a situation/condition that you always wanted. SO this is mean that, I love to read coz I'd rather read than talk often. He he he.  Still didn't get my point?

I like to write because I Love to read back what I wrote in future, the more I write, the more letter I can read in the future.  Even though my writing is not neat enough, but at least I write something and it's a story about my life and it's something that can be my memory.  Hehe.. i'm so poor in memorizing thing, situation and something, so my writing sometimes helps me alot.

okay, tutup pasal Write and Read, aku mahu tulis sesuatu pula.. sesuatu yang lama tapi masih segar dan takkan expired (in Shaa' Allah)..

22 November 2013 - Declaring New Relationship

Pada tarikh tersebut, aku telah mengisytiharkan (declare) perhubunganku dengan seseorang (ya'ni lelaki) hehe.. well, sound mengenyam kan? tapi itulah kenyataannya. Yeahh Aeja fell in love again. and she felt so lovely.. eh eh..

Tapi yang pastinya, day by day I fell in love more and more with him. so next, kahwin la ya? tunggu lagi 5 tahun.. huhu...

k baiii...

Alhamdulillah.. Thank You Allah...

Assalamualaikum,

Lama tidak menjenguk dan menulis di sini.

Ya Allah, aku bersyukur Ya Allah.  Hari ini merupakan hari yang terindah kurasakan.
Walaupun orang lain menganggap keputusan 3B 2C itu keputusan sederhana tp bagi aku dan familyku, itu merupakan keputusan yang membanggakan sekali buat kami sekeluarga.  Hari ini keputusan UPSR telah diumumkan, dan adikku Muhamad Khaliq Farhan bin Abd. Malek telah berjaya memperoleh keputusan tersebut tanpa gagal mana-mana subjek.  Tahniah adik acheeq, walaupun farhan autistik tp farhan boleh menjawab soalan peperiksaan spt budak-budak normal yang lain.  mudah-mudahan kejayaan terus mengiringi perjalananmu adik.  Kami sayang sangat-sangat Farhan.

Fuhhh.... berdegup degap juga jantung tunggu result diumumkan tadi. Untuk menjadi orang pertama tahu result aku siap schedule message delivery kat hp.. result keluar jam 10 pagi so aku pun set kan timer utk send mesej tu.  Alhamdulillah, we are so proud of you my lil. bro. You are such an inspiration to other kids. Mengajarmu memerlukan kesabaran yang tinggi.  Even acheeq pun kadang-kadang tertewas dalam memberi bimbingan dan tunjuk ajar kpd farhan.  Ummi jugaklah insan yang tabah dan penyabar dalam mendidik anak-anak.  Maka hargailah ummi anda.  Terima kasih ummi kerana menjadi ibu terbaik kpd kami anak-anakmu. Terima kasih juga abah sebab menjadi penjaga terbaik keluarga kita.  Semua dengan peranan masing-masing yang dijalankan dengan ikhlas dan jayanya. I love my family. In Shaa Allah keluargaku sakinah....

Aamiin...

Long Time Journey

Assalamualaikum Warahmatullahi Ta'ala Wabarakatuh...

Hi, it's been a long time since I didn't take a peak and looking onto this page because recently I've been busy with something that I don't know what? Maybe I'm just linger around wasting my time but sincerely I do so and feel wasted about what I've earn in my living just now. What did I've earn? I didn't earn too much I just like day by day feel lost and stuck into something that make my head feel dizzy and sometimes makes me feel like wanting to hit it on the hard wall.  Just let it broke into pieces then when I feel sorry I'll come back picking up the pieces and stick it back together with the glue.  Am I sick by thinking of something that irrelevant? Am I?

The question with no final Answer.. That's all what we all talk about everyday.  We keep on asking by the meantime we already know the answer.  So why we came up with nothing we have done just sitting and let thing happen? That's us "human being" that is nothing awkward for being a human coz it's our nature.  For not being thankful for what Allah has given to us..... always like that... Masya Allah..

The year of 2013 - this is the year that I feel like I don't deserve anything in this whole world.  Why dear?? All people around me who loves me, taking care of me, believe in me and so on.. but me? myself -- wasting my time by chasing people who didn't deserve my kindness, my love,my attention and my faith.. it's just me?? I'm sorry for that.

Today, I declare myself to deactivate one of my social network account just for a while because I feel annoying about myself by shouting my private life my dumb pic my silly thought in the wall for people put their attention to me. That's not me. Even at all.. I hate it.

Today also, i've send an application and my wish to change my attitude my time my mind set hoping that this application will be accepted by that receiver as for me I really hope to get into those place.. Really really hope since I've enter this job.

i wish that my wish will come true.

It's me MT Aeja talking about my wish and come up with miscellaneous things...

Friend Or Foe??

Assalamualaikum,.

Gambar motif: Cuba lari dari kenyataan akhirnya dapat penampar??

Hai, how's your day? I hope it will be good and always better everyday.. day by day..

Think of me?

No... I don't think you will do so?

Why you want to make thing so complicated before?

Yeah..

I have friend and friends.

I do have them, but do they have me?

I don't know.

You can say better thing, but you will never know what will comes along..

Life is a journey. Everyone has they own journey. So be it. Just be you. No matter what people will talk bad about you but it's you. Maybe they were true, so why not? Just accept what they talk about you but unless it's true.

People always said, know your enemy.. but don't they want to know their friend? I do want to know my friend.  I know some of them but what I don't know is, are they will to be my friend? oR they just want to hang over with me, for a reason?? I really don't like that kind of situation.. I think it's goes the same with other.  Either you and I, do didn't want to be in a situation where your friend only be there when they need you.. not when they feel you need them...

Ini bukan novel okay.  Ini kenyataan hidup.

Hari ini rasa macam mau tulis pasal "How You Treat People and How You Want Them To Treat You Back?"

Situasinya macam ini.

Berada di kelompok baru.

Bagi aku, apabila berada di dalam kelompok yang baru, aku akan menjadi pendiam dulu.  Mata memerhati, minda meneliti.  Bukan memilih tapi menyesuaikan diri.  Seterusnya, aku akan cuba bergerak mengikut masa.  Tetapi yang penting, kita haruslah melayan sesiapa sahaja samarata.

Permulaan yang baik tidak semestinya merupakan penentu sesuatu berjalan lancar pada akhirnya.  Kadang-kadang, permulaan yang tidak sempurna itu lebih menjamin keharmonian dalam sesuatu perhubungan.  ha ha ha ha.. Menangis dahulu ketawa kemudian. (pfffff.......)

Kehidupan ini tidak pernah akan menemui kesudahan sehinggalah kita menemui titik ajal iaitu di saat Malaikat maut menjemputmu.  Oleh itu, berkawanlah dengan semua orang dan bermusuhlah dengan diri sendiri.  Eh?? Ada pula macam tu? huhuhuhu...udah2 ler tu kak. buruk sangat.

k bye...

It's me, MTA talking about whatever...

FORGET ME?? I KILL YOU!!!

Apa perlu saya buat?? Que terlalu LAMA....

Assalamualaikum,...

Today's entry will be about? Rebate smartphone RM200.00 for youth age from 18-30 yrs old. Student and employee's monthly salary not exceed Rm3,000.00. wah.. seem so interesting but i've already bought a new smartphone. So I think no need to use this opportunity 'coz u also have to paid in a big amount just to get a new smartphone??? oh no... but it's okay.. ini semua duniawiiiii.... why don't they give us rebat to perform hajj?? haa... SAME STORY GOES TO THIS DUNIAWI THINGS LAH.. why don't govt give us a rebate to perform hajj.. for eligible muslim/ah with t&c.. 1Malaysia.. yes.. MALAYSIA!! we are ISLAM's country, why don't give all MUSLIMs a high priority.. so there will be no racial issue raise.

Dunia politik sekarang ni aku makin x paham.. apa yang diperjuangkan sebenarnya?? so better tak ambik port sangat..

Apa perlu saya buat?? Que terlalu lama...... this is a situation..true story and a complain from a patient to a Govt Hospital's service. weyyyyyy... initiative!! if u don't want to wait for a long que.. do something.. it's all about you. why dont you go to another GP clinic. spend some money if you don't want to spend some time (what a waste).

This is my channel to speak what inside of mine. so please don't get annoy.

Take care.

Wassalam.

MTAeja. Randomly writing.

I write a note, and it's a note ^_~

I have to take it all even though it's so hard.. Contoh bagi redha itu ikhlas pasrah itu menyerah.. Merelakan yg telah pergi tanpa meminta utk kembali.. Just be thankful for every moment yg telah dikongsi bersama.. Tiada peluang kedua yg sama.. Setelah apa yg terjadi., melalui pergaduhan perbalahan dalam sesebuah perhubungan ternyata kita lebih memahami bahawa kekeruhan ternyata telah berlaku. Setelah lama tidak menulis nota-nota kehidupan di sini ternyata i feel so weak and couldn't stop asking why.. ?? Hanya memerlukan kekuatan utk kekal kuat.. Kuat utk menerima perbuatan org lain terhadap diri ini. Apa yg terjadi sebenarnya cik adik? Perlukah dibahaskan apa yg terjadi? Stop the tears dear keep ur faith and be strong ^_^

My name is aeja. I am 23rd years old lady who living in this so untrimmed life who belong to me. Everyday i keep talking bout change change change from good to better. But still, it's still me the same old one no changes at all. Dengar tak hari tu sahabatmu pernah berpesan? Jangan terlalu bergantung kepada kehidupan duniawi semata-mata. Letakkan dunia itu di tangan dan akhirat di hatimu.. Kerana sesungguhnya manusia dicipta utk beribadah kepada Allah. Apa dikisahkan dengan kehidupan yg penuh kepalsuan ini? Apa ? Apa? Apa? Kisahkah kau dengan kehilangan? Kenapa bercakap tentang kerinduan kpd insan? Cukupkah kau merindui sujudmu kpd yg Esa?Dalam hidup ini, kita perlu tegas terhadap diri sendiri sebelum kita bertegas dengan org lain. Dahulukan kpd diri sendiri sebelum kita mengubah org lain. Kerana perubahan terbesar adalah sanggup berubah dan menerima perubahan diri. Di sinilah aku tidak layak untuk bercakap tentang kehidupan dan di sinilah aku mulai merasai kekerdilan. Masih adakah ruang dan waktu utk aku berubah?Dear my friend who I always hurt the most, please forgive me bcose tonight.. Once again I feel lost and I don't want to be with you. Yes, not you but you my friend.. You're avoiding me I know that but I just don't want to admit it. So I leave.. Once again but this time i leave in silent.. Without uve ever notice.. Slow and steady like nothing ever happen..Nota ini bercampur tapi tajuknya tetap sama.. My note and i write a note.. Tq.. Keep faithful coz u will gone so soon sooner or later ^_~

Sedikit gambar-Gambar kaki untuk ditatap umum:

aku suka berjaga sampai tengah malam.. reason?? jiwa kacau kadang2...hampa......

Tangan kiri selalu lenguh.. cuba buat electric wave... (kerja hospital banyaklah  medical equipment yg boleh dicoba)

one of my favorite food :::::: perasanla tu ada mix chinesse blood..wheeehheee

yes!! peminat mocha juga ~_^

aku juga suka perasan cute ^_^ haha.. sapa lagi mau rasa cute kalau bukan diri sendiri kan...

okay, that's all for today. So long, farewell and semoga berjumpa lagi di lain hari.

MTAeja: talking about so soon lagi ^_~